Thank You!

 

It’s been a very long time. I hardly know where to start, how to explain, what to say. There’s been so much. I just know that I miss being here terribly, miss you, all my blogger and reader friends, and I miss having a place to pour out the things I can say nowhere else.

I’ve been sick, I’ve been tired, and I’ve been very frightened for months now. The cancer scare turned out to be just that, a scare. I am 100% cancer free and so happy, grateful…but still recovering from the trauma.

There were a series of tests. First a blood test that had suspicious results, then the visit to the oncologist, then the genetic testing he recommended. Then a long wait while 3 different tests came back one at a time, each about two weeks apart. When each was negative, there was the shadow of not knowing what the next would show. Frankly, that was grueling. I was encouraged by the genetic counselor to think about outcomes, what those might mean to my children, and even made aware of preventative chemotherapy. I think the idea that if I tested for the cancer gene my children would have a 50% chance of inheriting it was the worst part of all of this. And then, there were the odd circumstances that had me going through this at 54 years old when my mother died of cancer at 54. The 25th anniversary of my mother’s death fell in the midst of all of this. I was anemic, exhausted, in pain and bleeding almost all of the time.

Not only did I not have the energy to write here but I did not have the heart to. Too much drama, too much angst, too much negative with no resolution until there was resolution.

Anyway, my surgery was May 25th, and while it knocked me out of commission for a while, now, 2 weeks later, I am starting to feel…well, better! The surgery is behind me, all the biopsies came back negative, and I am healing well. I am pretty much housebound, but every day I feel stronger and more like me. I still can’t drive. I still can’t do any exercise beyond very short walks. I still have to wear loose clothes and take naps…but I feel myself regaining some bit of my ‘mojo’, and starting to be able to look forward to the rest of my life. I really want to put these very hard 4 month behind me. Of course, I not only lost my uterus but both ovaries, which sent me into hardcore menopause overnight. No doubt that will be interesting! The hot flashes have already started.

So that’s all about me. Well, of course there’s so much more to say, but I’ll save it for my next post, and likely the one after that too. Mostly, I wanted to let you all know that I am totally ok, that I am coming back to the blog, and that your emails and comments have meant the world to me. I owe so many of you personal responses, and am working up to that. In the meantime, I thank you with all of my heart for your tremendous support and many prayers!

               

50 thoughts on “Thank You!

  1. Sara , that is the very best news I could imagine. You have been in my prayers and you have been missed her in blogland. Thanks for the update

  2. I’m delighted to hear that you are feeling better. Great to see that you are blogging again. :)

  3. OMG Sara! That is amazing, fabulous. Wonderful, stupendous news! Good for you and you family! Recover well and quickly. :))

  4. This made my weekend! I have been wondering how you were doing, trying to sent good karma your way. thanks for the update. Here’s to more days of gaining strength and getting on with your life! hugs abby

  5. Thanks Sir J

    Blondie, the prayers were appreciated!

    Hugs right back at ya, Mouse!

    Mindy, I look forward to being able to write again.

    Pamela, “stupendous” about covers it! :)

    I was wondering where that good karma came from Abbey! ;)

    Thank you so much Saoirse!

  6. I have missed you in big giant bunches…and hope I haven’t bugged you too often. ;) We are just so glad that you are okay and the tone of this post made me smile. You sound like…well…you. Take it slow Sara.

  7. Sara, you have been on my heart and in my prayers. It was sweet of Grant to give us the update, but it is wonderful to hear from you! I will continue to pray for your recovery. And Grant, as you walk through this lightening flash menopause thing together! Geez, this could be an experience. :shock:

    Hugs, Kady

  8. So happy to hear that you are cancer free! I discovered your blog while you were on hiatus and am grateful to have found your thoughtful presence.

  9. So relieved to hear that all is well. So glad you can put all the bad stuff behind you and get on with living a good life!

  10. Sara, it is SO good to hear from you. It was really sweet of Grant to let us know you were okay and recovering, but so much better to hear from you. I’m so glad that you’re cancer free. That must be a huge relief, as well as not having to worry about whether you’ve passed along any genetic markers. You’ve been in my thoughts and prayers and will continue to be my friend. Thanks so much for the update. (((hugs)))

  11. Susie, I have missed you big bunches too!

    Kady, I felt the support even when I wasn’t online and am so grateful! Ugh to those flashes!!!

    Hi Renee Rose, nice to ‘meet’ you and thanks for the kind words!

    Thank You Ally!

    I am looking forward to looking forward Cindy!

    Yes Grace, I have felt a lot of relief and so much gratitude!

    Thanks Kiki!

  12. 100% Cancer FREE! We could not have asked for better news. I’m sure that you’ll feel better every day. Thankyou for letting us in on the good results.

  13. I am so happy to hear that you’re okay! I was praying for you every day (and I will continue to!). I hope you’re able to have some happy “me” time right now too; sounds like you need and deserve it after all the stress you’ve been through! Welcome back! You have been missed! :D

  14. Welcome back, Sara!

    I am so so so happy to see you back. I really missed you. It is wonderful to know that you will be okay and that nothing was passed on to your kids. Also, please thank Grant for keeping us informed.

    Looking forward to your next post and the one after that and the one after that and . . .

    Hang in there!
    R.

  15. I am a longtime lurker on your blog & I think it is fabulous. I just wanted to say how very happy I am for you & your family that all is well & you can look forward to the future.

    Hot flushes all I will say is try the Ladycare Magnet (amazon) it is AMAZING, it takes a few weeks to kick in but once it does you will never be without it!

    Once again wonderful news.

  16. Patty, I do feel better every day and glad to be here to enjoy it!

    Thank you FD

    Kay, I am indeed concentrating on ‘me time’ (in bewteen naps). It’s part of the healing I think?

    Thank you for your ongoing caring and support R!

    Hi firefly and welcome! I’m taking Black Cohosh and Soy for the hot flashes…but the magnets could be next!

    Hermione, I do feel like I’ve been though the worst, and come out in a better place, when all is said and done.

    Thanks so much Kevan!

  17. New to your blog but very happy to hear that you are doing much better. Looking forward to reading the rest of your posts. Take care.
    Fondly,
    Adaline

  18. I am so glad, Sara. I have missed you; I have been thinking of and praying you would have good news. xxxxxxxxxxx

  19. Well…, soon you will be back in the saddle again, all this will be in the past!!!
    Get well soon…Grants needs his girl!!
    Annie~~~~

  20. I’m so glad that all the news was good and that you’re back! I will keep praying for you and Grant as you take the instant menopause trip together! ;-)

  21. So happy you are cancer free and healing, and BACK! Obviously you have been missed. I’ve been thinking of you and praying for you, too. Take good care of yourself while you recover.

  22. Thanks for the hugs Serenity!

    Hi Adaline and welcome! I look forward to ‘seeing’ you here again.

    I’ve missed all of you a great deal as well Ronnie.

    Thanks for the prayers and good wishes Daisy!

    Annie, this has all been really hard on Grant too. Back in the saddle? Um not quite yet! ;)

    D, the menopause trip together…
    I did the pregancy, delivery, nursing…don’t you think HE should do the menopause???

    It does feel really good to be back Vanessa, Thank you!

  23. Great to hear from you Sara, so glad you’re on the mend so thanks for posting this update :)

    Dee x

  24. This is great news and I just wanted to send continued well wishes to you.
    You are loved by so many in blog land and your blog is staple. All the best to you and Grant. Regards,

  25. It is such good news and such a relief to know you are well. You have been truly missed. Take care as you recover. All the best.

  26. Thank you Lea

    Yes Sarah…”a holiday”. Now if I can muster the energy to enjoy it!

    Hey Dee, thanks for the encouragement!

    Hi SNP, the well wishes are much appreciated!

    And I’m glad to be back Jean!

    Thanks so much Ana!

    Zoe, I am relieved and glad to be back too.

  27. It’s so nice to hear from you, and I’m so glad you are well on your way to complete recovery! (But yuck on the hot flashes and such-I can relate.
    ) You sound like you’re following doctors orders and no doubt Grant’s too! ;-)
    Best wishes for continued success! Thanks for the update! :-)

  28. God is good. I’m glad the prayers were answered. I’m sorry you had to go through it all. God Bless You and Yours, Belle L.

  29. I have only written to you once, but I follow your blog frequently. I am so glad that your test came back negative and that everything is slowly coming back to normal for you and your family.

  30. Thanks Jane!

    Elysia, both the Dr and Grant have been all over me to take things VERY slowly…lots of rest, don’t stretch, bend, lift, only short walks, no driving…geeez!!!!

    Life is good Belle, and I’m so grateful for every moment of it!

    A woman of few words! :) Thanks Susan!

    I’m glad to ‘meet you’ curley. TY for your well wishes!

    As is always the way Laurie…right?

  31. Yes, I do believe he should do the MENopause! You know, men are the root of most of our problems…. MENstruation, MENtal illness, MENopause….. I’m seeing a pattern here ( and hoping M. doesn’t read this)! ;-)

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